ThE StePS OF mUa LIFE")

My updates:)

2010-07-21T18:57:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

Only left with 2 more weeks b4 skl ends..
Now i realise how fast time flies..
PRCP is getting nearer n nearer!
OMG,can i make it?
I will ensure tht i will..
although nursing is not my passion,i will not intend to waste my time n effort spent in this course for no diploma in the end..
I will do my very Best!

Well besides tht,In the past few weeks i been having alot of outings wif my 'click' and class
As a class we went to seoul garden for mkan,Graduation party..
as a click we went to vivoct to watch movie..'The despicable me',Its a funi movie,much recommended to watch..hehe...
another outing is coming up,the last one,b4 skl is out..
The photos is piling up..
our intention Is to gather as much memories as possible..

My relationship is going well so far...
there is ups n dwns,alhamdullilah,we manage to solve it in a better way..
I hope ALLAH blessed our relationship,n our destiny is to b together for life..
I do luv him very much..
cant wait for the relationship to b 2mth old,so i knw we can sustain it long enuf..

Thts it for now:)
Got to go

Muackszeeee:)

SHS PROM NITE 11 may 2010

2010-06-15T15:58:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

11 may 2010,was the best day of my life..
ITS MY SCHOOL PROM NITE WHOOH!!
The theme is hollywood bollywood,i wore a black dress..
The games was awesome,i like it when the guys did poll dancing..sexy..
N When it was uncle beng's turn he make the poll dance for him
we all laugh like mad,lol

We ate,n also taking photo wif a few VIPS,like hassan n few others.
The food was nice,but the drinks are limited,hehehe
After eating all the sugar boost food,we all went dancing on the dance floor..
i dance dance n dance,reali letting my self go,n forgetting all my werries...

It was great dancing wif my gerls..
Happy moments,there also b emotional moments...
mala n sha2,hug n cried...tht a good part,tht meant there is no more conflict in my click..
Problem solve..I also cried along wif them,Wht can i do,i also a emotional person.hehe
Then we continue dancing till 10pm...
Arnd 1030pm,my daring come to pick me up...
thank u mala,n aziah accompaying me for tht half n hour.....

MUackszeeee:)

Best FRiday Ever

2010-06-09T17:49:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

I had fun wif my guy last fri..
We watches a movie called "Freddy of Elm street".The story is not tht terrfying but it contain alot of suspen scene,tht make the viewers scream..
At first i was sitting alone keeping all my hands to myself,the next thing i knw i hugging the arm of my guy,as i was scared..
He took my left hand n hold it tight in btween his palms.....
He kissed me on the forehead..
Then we continue watching the movie till the end..

That is the first time tht i felt respected by a guy..
After the movie we went for dinner,we ate "nasi ayam penyet" at bedok corner..
SEDAP....hehehe
We talked,n getting to knw each other more deeply..
After tht,we went to east coast beach for a stroll..then we sat on a bench,listening to music on youtube in his Iphone
I introduce to him my favourite malay song,"gurauan berkasih" sang by achik n siti nordiana..
He likes the music but havent master the lyrics yet..hehe
I hope he will soon,so tht he knws how meaningful is tht song..

Thus he ride me home..
Tht is the most memorable day,n i hope in the future,nthg change..

Muackszeeee:)

UPS N DWNS OF LIFE:(

2010-05-31T17:10:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

In this semester there have been alot of ups n downs in terms of frenship n family
First im the main problem,i didnt do anything for my family prblm till i gt a confrontation of my life it does woke me up..I tried different ways but another prblm pop up,my mother..
My mother who doesnt agree to MSW help,we fought like almost everyday jus to make her see the facts..But she still being stubborn..since then i had become rebellious..I been coming home late jus to find peace for my self...
Then i met him,who reali brighten my life.
Now the iceberg is breaking bit by bit..now i can even talk to my mum n siblings not sarcastically
But the tough voice is still there...

Another prblm had pop up..
SHA SHA N AMALA is cold wif each other due to some argument..
I understand frenship do have ups n downs,but how u solve it is the main thing...
Im totali nuetral in this situation..
I jus want them to b back together,i want ALL 5 OF US TO B IN 1 CLICK ONCE MORE..
i jus go wif the time as i knw this situation cant b rush..
GERLS PLS DONT LET A MOMENT DESTROY ALL THE GOOD MOMENTS YOU HAD WIF EACH OTHER..GOOD MOMENTS IS THE BEST.
Like i said im floating,i will treat all my frens the same way..
all the best,i hope it will b a hapi ending:)

Muackzseeee:)

"Fly",by Hillary duff

2010-05-18T12:48:00.002+08:00

In the moment,everything can change..
Feel the wind on ur shoulder..
For a minute,all the world can wait,let go of ur yesterday
CAn u hear it calling,CAn u feel it in ur soul,CAn u trust this longing..
N Take CONTROL..

Chorus
Fly..
Open up the part of u tht want to hide away..
U can shine..
Forget abt the reason that u cant alive
N strt to try..
Coz its ur time..
Time to fly...

All ur worries..Leave them Somewhere else,Find a Dream u can follow..
Reach for Something When there is Nothing Left..
When the world feeeling Hollow..
Can u hear it calling,Can u feel it in ur soul,can u trust this longing
N take control...

Chorus

N when u down,n feel alone,juz wanna run away..
Trust urself n dont give up..
U knw u better than anione else..

In a moment,Everything can change...:)

:)

2010-05-08T20:29:00.002+08:00

Bila ku pendam kan sedih ku ini,semakin dalam rajuk dihati

Bila ku menegur kesilapanmu,kesudahnya tiada berkesan

ku hanya memandang..

Dunia yg engkau kejar kan,itu lah yg akan di tglkan,bila di hujung jalan

timbul la kekesalan..

Walau kau menangis,walau kau merintih..oooh

Tapi semuanya oooh,sudah terlewat...

Faamily Court

2010-05-06T12:16:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

Yesterday,my sis,my mom n i went to the family court to settle the problem that had been tearing our brain apart...
We file a complaint angainst my father for not giving our money on proper,n as the result alot of billls piling up...We keep asking ppl money,juz to get food on the table n money for our ezlink...
OUr life is like toppling upside down...

Aniwaay,we finali got to mit him after a long time...
He changed alot,he got a tummy,n alot of white hair..
At first we were not talking to him at all..,but he approached me n my sis,n asking hw r we,its like rude not to answer...
i dont knw y,after a lot time he makes us suffer,we still respect him..like WTH...

Then their q number flashed,n they went to the mediation chamber
The session was about an hour,me n my sis were like slacking in the waiting room..
When the session is over,my father was not tht happy..as he cant reduce the amount of the maintainence money..
In fact ,according to my mum,he had to pay the amount on the exact day no delay,no less amount,if not the balance tht he didnt paid on tht particular mth will be bring foward to the following mth.....if he still not paying,he will b sent to jail..thts the new order...

Well tht had settled..
However yesterday,i felt tht my family is complete,i feel happy...
I got a mom n a father..
Sadly they r not together..
Wont it b wonderful,if my father didnt make problem in the past
My life wont b miserable,wont b lonely,n wont b broken...

MUackzseeee:)

Year 3

2010-04-21T13:30:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

Sori for soo long i didnt post anything..
So far during the holidays there is nothing special happened,as most of the time i just rot at home..haha..
Anyways,school had started..IM ALREADY IN YEAR 3.wOw SO FAST..
hahaha...SCARY.................................................................
PRCP is coming.i need to werk reali3 hard to pass...
OMG..

The timetable not reali heavy...Have alot of breaks
Surely we will used those breaks to settle the projects..
WOo..Stress..
I already have my group members for the FYP..
Ok lah,so far i m ok wif them,so can make it,insyallah..:)

Muackszeeee:)

:(

2010-02-10T16:07:00.005+08:00

For this few days i have been reali miserable..
There is pain both inner and outter part of me...
I dont knw which one is worse..
Both pain I cant heal it....

Outter part is my rash..the damn thing that i been living with my whole life
i wonder when this will last...
now no medicine and its burning tru out the days..
y cant i have anormal life,like normal ppl..
HE knows i am financial suffocating yet HE gave me another burden to carry
Its not fair,im not doing anything wrong yet HE is punishing me like this..

I WANT A NORMAL LIFE!!.
Im tired of living like this..

Its PAINFUL..it reali DOES...

N the pain inside me keep worsen till make me give up..
I dont want it to occur in my LIFE ever again,I HATE it...
HATE HATE HATE!

2010-02-10T16:07:00.002+08:00

Yesh,finali skl is out,but not officiallly..
BCOZ..examz still not over yet...
This few days, i have to study reali hard for my exams..i wan to improve my grades..
Hope soo ha...hehehe

On this last day of skl, i reali mizz my BEStie alot...
More than Usual..

Muackzseee:)

My nightmare week had ended:)

2009-12-16T13:32:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

Finali my nightmare week had ended...
I had finish my
1.Adult nursing presentation
2.my research method theory test
3.Statistic theory test
4.Nursing skill lab prac test
5.bio prac test

For my adult nursing presentation i was nervous to the max,and i stammered in most of my pronouciation..Mayb becoz i didnt do presentation speaking for a long time..hehe..I hope the class did understand wht i am talking abt..

My reseach method i gt a"b" grade which is a good achievement for me..My nursing skill prac,i pass my first attempt which a suprise for myself,coz this never happened in the past semester..A little advice for me is try to overcome my nervousness as it will pull dwn my ability to do well..Hehe.Ok miss cynthia i will try my bEST..

Regret fully i failed my statistic theory..
Due to the time..
Haiz nvmd,i nid to focus on the project in order to pass this module..

Still waiting for my bio prac result.
My confident level of passing is only 50 percent as some of the quetions are tricky..
I pray hard for juz a pass grade..

Now i goin through week 9,i juz finished another presentation today..
I can feel tht i am slacking in this week..as i always feel restless at skl..
Cant wait for my holiday to come..

Muackszeeee:)

Bad mistake

2009-12-04T13:31:00.003+08:00

Dear diary

I had done a bad mistake,tht reali jurt my sisters feeling..
One of my kitten is lost,we tri searching high n low for him,but failed
Actuali its my fault,i forget to close the window tht is near to a chair..
The kitten must have climb n fall off,mayb someone found him n bring him home
I hope tht true.i reali wan him to b save
But my sister reali miz him badly,they always cried
This had reali deeped the guilt within me,how i wish i could turn back the time
I can onli apologise to them,n i dont mind if they wan to b angry with coz i knw its my fault
even my female cat bycott wif me
HMm..how sad..

I could onli b silent,n hopefully my sisters will slowly accpet the reality
Hope tht i will found my kitten one day,so tht i could kill the guilt inside me..

MUackszseee

Damn angry wif her

2009-12-04T13:31:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

Im so fucking fed up rite now..
Fed up wif my mom..who have negative thinking over social things..
When is she goin to wake up tht im no longer 15,im 19,for goodness sake..

MY class have a bbq event n she dont let me go
Coz to her bbq,means doing bad things..
After last nite,when she scold me like hell,i cant even talk to her
My heart is burning pain..
Y do i have to ruin my social life all bcoz of her
I knw she is my mom,but plz respect my decision la
Is not like now im behaving like a fucking bad gerl
dont till i do tht k..

oooh gosh,when am i goin to get my freedom
..FED UP!..

Sori readers if this post contain vulgaraties,coz im reali angry

MUackszeeee:)

My first car accident

2009-11-30T11:36:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

On sunday at 6.55pm,I had a horrifying experience..
I was involved in minor a car accident.
Although its just a minor accident it reali had traumatised me..

My uncle was driving the car and goin to my house carpark..
My uncle intend to turn,but the car increase in speed and went straight ahead twrds the pathment tht it hit a another lorry tht is parked there..
The impact was so strong tht i hit my face against the front sit.My specs hit my cheekbone,n my lips bleed slightly..
My sisters are ok..But they reali have a shock..
I was thankful tht my mom n uncle was ok,as they wearing seatbelt..

Tht accident reali take the all the attention frm the public..
We went out frm the car..
The car already stuck at the pathment..
The owner of the lorry reclaimed insurance,but reali its not my uncle fault.
Something is wrong with the car..
Couple of hours later hte police came and also the toll truck.

My uncle handle the whole thing calmly.
My family n i already in the house n we see the outcome frm the window as it onli nearby.
Thank god we all save..Now i knw how the impact is like,no wonder some ppl injured badly

However,the hit on my head reali gave me a headache till now..
I felt giddy most of the time.
I hope the pain will went off asap..coz i have alot of assignment coming up..
"terima kasih Ya allah kau telah menyelamatkan kami,dan memajangkan umur kehidupan kami.
amin..

Muackzseee:)

:)

2009-11-23T15:20:00.008+08:00

Dear diary,

Finali i gotten my specz or wht sha2 say extra mata..haha.this is my pic..
Its a good feeling actuali,coz this have been pending since skl reopen..
Pending bcoz financial prblm as per normal..
My family prblm strt to ease dwn already..
Pending bills r finali paid..
n my hp line are activated..
Hari raya haji is coming n i looking frwrd to the delicious dishes..yum2

As for skl..its bcoming heavier every week
Y?Due to alot of project mitings..n tests tht coming up..
Nvmd im sure i can manage..

Muackszeeee:)

Our miting:)

2009-11-23T15:20:00.007+08:00

Dear diary,

LAst friday i met zizah wif her mom at raffles place..
Its juz a short miting..
She goin to some rehearsal which is im forgot wht it is
so she need to borrow my formal top..

We met at arnd 5pm sharp...
We hugged each other tightly..as we missess each other sooo much..
We chat abt each other life.....
Arnd 5.15pm..zizah and i take green line train as she have to go to outram n i have to go to redhill..
As zizah have to reach her destination arnd 6.30pm
On our way..we manage to joke abt thiz immature guys who trying to act big..
They wearing sunglasses in the train..like wth..is it tht bright..hahaha.silly..
We had a great laugh..haha
As the train reached outram,we gave each other a hug..
And promised tht we will mit again one day,may b soon...
Zah i will b looking frwrd for tht day...
Miz u already sis.. take care..

Muackszeeee:)

The Answer:)

2009-11-11T10:53:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

I had already found the answer to my question...
'Juz be FRENZ'..
At first it kinda heartbreaking..
Mostly im hapi coz i can finali get on wif my life than waiting for the fantasi tht will never become a reality...
Mayb all tht dreams is juz nthg..

Is good tht he is being truthful to me..
however i will try to get over this feeling tht is FAdinG away as time passess..
Mayb he is not meant for me..
well sgl doent meant loneliness,I still have my Besst Frenssss...

Muackszeeee:)

2009-11-09T15:18:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

Today i did something tht shoudnt be done..
I could not have suceed w/o my frens help..
The 'THing' had already be send to the person..
Im sooo damn nervous rite now..
Scared of the answer,hope its a positive one..
But nvm,i did it juz to get off the question frm my heart..
Thx gerls for the help..

mUackzseeee:)

ConFused Me

2009-10-28T01:18:00.005+08:00

Dear diary

Ppl always says if u knws tht the guy doesnt like u better move on...
i like this guy,we knwn each other for some time but not tht close..
Frm the way i knw i do not have a chance wif him..means i can go for other options rite..
But in the way i juz couldnt...
In tagged,a guy wants my number n want to get to knw me better,chances are there
But my heart immediately refused..i didnt even give a second thaught

Y?this is the ques tht i myself couldnt answer..
Is it bcoz my feeling for tht guy still deep..
y do i want wait,huh...
or is it it trust my for guys if no longer exist
But still i admire him..
Man,heart is crazy...haha..
whatever it is lets see wht happen in the future

MUackzseeee:)

Miz ya..

2009-10-26T22:26:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

1 week had passed since skl reopen.
till now im still miss my best fren,my partner in crime..
my click is not complete w/o her..
she had prblms tht need to settle..i respect tht,
sometime i wish her tht i can help her settle everything so tht she can come back n have a blast wif us.
i cried,as i cant hold up to my tear..
Now we cant contact each other,hw i wish i can meet up wif her..
I want to hug her tightly..
zah,sori i had to write,coz its the way tht i express my feelings out..
We all miz u..

U want to knw this sem,we always go to south canteen to eat wedges,u like it rite..hehe
Whtever it is,take care urself k..

MUakzseeee:)

Breaking News

2009-10-06T13:14:00.011+08:00

REad froM the Top to Bottom

BreAkinG News From Syima Blog

.....................:):):):):):):):):)...............

There is A suprising Guest tht breaks Into My Family

ThEy are sMAll..Cuddly,..Cute N Irrisistable

Their Names r CUMI,NIMI,NUMI>:

DOnt darre to Get cLose to Them As they Will Make U Attched to them::

Now I will INtroduce

SURPRISE!!!!!!!

HEhehehehehehehe...They R mY MAnis NEW BORN kittens....3 Cute Heroes................................
These KIttens r Born On the 5 oct 2009
Cumi who is the eldest is born at 0950pm.He is white as a whole n gt brown patches on his forehead,middle part of the body,totali long brown tail,n a pink nose which he gt it frm his father..hehe..
Later,the second kitten was born at 1030pm..He is also white as a whole but he gt more dark brown patches..he gt his mother stripes at the face,also his father pink nose..
I tot the third one will be the same colour but i was wrong..
Numi was born at 1103pm...He is also white as a whole BUT he is black patches..jus like his father..
hehehehe...This is my first experience seeing my cat gave birth..I feel very thankful tht they all save...I will try my best to take care all of them..I apologise if the pictures is not tht clear..coz the babies cant stop moving arnd..hehe..ok..hope u all enjoy seeing the piczz..

signing Off wif LOVE frm MANIs FAMILY!:)

1 week had passed

2009-09-08T00:26:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

One week of attchment had gone,i got 3 weeks to go..
So far attchment is going well for now
The CI is ok,kind n helpful at times but sometimes she can b reali strict
This time i got 8 year one students,5 of them are China gerls while the other 3 are PR
Seeing them at the first day reali reminded me of me being a YEAR 1 student..
They r blur and reali gets to ur nerves.
In the first week,i can see some r trying very hard to get used to the ward layout,while some reali needed a lot of pushing in order to get them werking,even doing para is very difficult for them...
Some of the staffs there cant tolerate them
I do pity them coz i knw its their first time,but they reali didnt show the keen to try
However today i do see a slight improvement..onli some is still at the same pace

I dont want to talk big,coz i myself also need to improve more in my theory,n i must complete my objectives..
In this posting i want to try to get rid of the remarks saying tht im a soft spoken gerl n need to communicate more...
Well my case study is due this fri,n i have to pick a new patient coz she is discharging tomorow,
i hope im able to finish on time..

Gerls hw r u btw i hope,u all doing great n enjoying ur posting cant wait to mit up wif u gerls
MIZ YA MUCH MUCH:)

MUackszeeee:)

Finishes my EXAM:)

2009-08-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

Dear diary,

Today 29/08 is michael jackson birthday and i jus saw his concert on TV..It was awesome..
How i wish he is still alive,well i juz pray for his well being in the other world....

My exam jus finish on the fri..
To tell the truth overall the exam r very difficult especially for mental health,adult nursing and behaviour mod..im very worried for these papers...
Exam done for now,but on next monday i will strt on my attchment
oooh i seriously not ready for attchment,huh,but what cant i do..
Gonna miz my gerls very much our next miting is on our JALAN RAYA..

Im reali broke right now,cant wait to strt werking again n earn some income.
Well gerls keep update ur blogs k,to keep each other updated especially u amala..
hehe..k take care gerls n enjoy ur attchment..N i reali hope we pass all our modules.

MUAckszeeee:)

HAPI FASTING MTH!

2009-08-22T14:13:00.004+08:00

Dear diary,

Time flies so fast that today,22.08.2009 is the first day of fasting.
LUckily it falls on saturday,i can rest home,the first day is always difficult coz our body havent adapt well yet..
This year i try to make a full mth of fasting..JUz hope tht period will come after the fasting mth..
The tiring part is fasting days clashes with my attchment..OOh my god,how am i goin to cope.

2 of my examz papers were over,n the papers are not tht easy.
i juz aiming for a pass in my module 2131..if not supp paper is waiting for me
hehe
I still havent receives the result for my clinical supp paper,hmm,hope tht i did well
The upcoming papers have Many INfo to study especially for adult nursing,the lecturer reali
had given us "useful tips"..huh ya rite..
I think she like to see the student die of strez than passing..

Thts it for now,goin to study and crack my brain apart..

MUAckszeeee:)

My ICA is oVER!:)

2009-08-08T23:00:00.005+08:00

Dear diary,

Finali my strezz week is over..For now.
My ICA projectz had finish,i can finali put tht away n concentrate on my upcoming examz..
Recently i went for my BCLS test,hope to pass,but i didnt..
Due to prolonged n bad ventilations..
So i have to come for the remedial on next thurs..suckz rite..
Well at least im not the onli one,the rest of my frens have the same faith..
Maybe bcoz the coordinator is there,so the lectures r a bit strict..
even hasif who got 4 chances,failed..nvmd he can try agian ..hehe..
N for zizah,dont give up ok..i knw u can do better in ur supp paper...smile k gerl:)

MUackszeeee:)

BAd news

2009-08-02T00:13:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

I have some bad news...
1.i have to take the clinical supp paper
2.i failed my elective theory test

Gosh,wht is happening to me..
In tis 2nd yr,im totali a failure:(
Am i slacking tht bad..or im not concentrating much enough on my studies
AAH!im so dissapointed..

But there is no use to cry over a spilled milk..
Now i have to focus on the chances tht i have to make things rite again..
Trust me if i make it tiz time,i promise my self i will not make a NEXT TIME
n I want to do welll on my examz...
Wish me luck:)

MUackszeee:)

Bad Day for ME..

2009-07-28T23:37:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

I had a bad day today..
Pissed off wif the ppl arnd me..
Cant understand them sometime...
I dont knw wht to do,or how to react..
I dont want to do something tht goin to make me regret..

Cant point out my mistakes..
so the onli thing to do is to go wift the flow..
But i will never let ppl push me arnd,coz i had enough of tht..

As my special feeling for him,is officially gone..
It will never come back...

Aniway i did dreamt of him..
In tht dream,we treat each other well,smiling away happily..
But tht will onli happened in tht dreamt,nt in realiti..
Luckily we onli knew each other online...

MUackszeeee:)

Lazing arnd:)

2009-07-23T15:41:00.005+08:00

Dear diary,

Today nthg much happen...
Juz have to study for 2 modules clinical n elective...
Zizah is very bz wif her grp mitings...she gt 2 presentation in tiz week
Pity her alot...Must b very tiring...
But nvmd if those presentations is finish she can relax n concentrate on her exams...

OK lah thts it for now,have to go n study
Wish me luck on my 2nd attempt for clinical...
Yeah I can DOOOO iT!U ALSO ZIZAH...

MUackszeeee:)

Ouch tht hurt"(

2009-07-19T17:01:00.006+08:00

Dear diary,

Today i received a msg frm my VE manager tht reali hurts my feelings...
"I reali dissapointed in ur irresponsible behaviour,thank u"
Tht what he said..
wow ouch stab rite in the heart...
The situation is,today in the morning he called to help him deliver 2 caton of CAL water to my uncle's house...
To b logic.i had already quit the job so i no longer needed for the service rite...
If he wants to deliver he can ask frm the colleagues to help rite...
so i juz ignore the msg,its not my fault rite...
Im scared if i mit him,he will ask me to join back...which is reali not my option...
NOw i felt quilty,of wht had happen...
But wht i can do...

MUackszeeee:)

Gd bye VE;)

2009-07-16T23:22:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

It been so long since i wrote my last post..
I had alot to share but there is no time for me to on my laptop..

Firstly,i juz quit frm a sales n markting job;)y?
Emm bcoz i had no time n i also dislike the ways there..
Due to the training tht is set for me,i always reached home late at nite..like 11pm everyday..
Then i have no time to revise my werk..n my ezlink reduced very quickly..
i only survived there arnd a week..
At first i felt tht i will regret if i quit this job,coz my ambition is to improve my lifestyle...
But if my putting to much attention to this job n flop my studies...loss will also occure in term of future...
Thts y,i chose my future instead n there is still other part time job tht fits my schedule...
Doing sales is like interfering in ppls schedules...

Next,i am now suffering frm conjuctivitis...
Its like an allergy tht infected my eyes coz redness n inflammation...
But luckily its not tht serious.
I also experiencing some giddyness this few days..but my BP is normal...
The doctor prescribed eyedrop n antibiotic for me...

Not going to skl tomorow..hehe..got 2 days of MC..yeah..
I want to rest n cure myself fully so tht im ok for nxt week test...

miz ya gerls...

MUackszeeee:)

YIPEE!

2009-06-27T15:14:00.004+08:00

Dear diary,

YEAH!1 WEEK OF HOLIDAY EXTENSION...!

bes nye,get to rest for 1 more week..

Well gerlz,rest n Have FUN ALL U CAN..

HEHEHE..

muackszeee

")

2009-06-24T16:12:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

Yesterday i had a a great outdoor fun wif my family...
After a long time finally we had a picnic at east coast...
We swam in the cool water...the weather is great for the whole day...
After swimming ,we went for cycling...

We reached home,tired n had a major sunburrn,hehehe..
now i had two colour skin tone...hehe...i laughed everytime i saw it...
I hope it will fade away b4 skl strt...
Talking abt skl..,its gonna strt next week..wow,how time flies..
Fasting month is also nearing...which i reali looking fwrd to..

Well hope tht my frens enjoyed thier holidays coz its gonna b e over soon..hehe
c ya gerlz next week...

MUackszeeee..:)

Hapi birthday:)

2009-06-16T23:12:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

On the 14 june i celebrated my 17 sis b'day..
We bought a cake n my mom juz cook some fried noodle...
Its juz a small celbration but its wonderful...
How fast time flies,now my sis had grown a year older...
We laughed,joke...its the moments tht i will never forget,

Now my attchment is over n i having my holiday for 2 weeks...
I had to study to prepare for the tests when skl strts...
Well thts it for now,not much story to write....

MUackszeeee:)

Gd bYe ward 62

2009-05-31T00:59:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

Finali my posting at the paedriatic ward 62 is over...
I had alot of fun there..
The SN n EN are very nice n never fail to teach me...
The Ci Hsien is ok..the best so far among the other Ci tht i had b4.

There i also had seen alot of interesting things and behaviour...
N sometimes i jus cant understand y they behave in tht way...
It hurts ppl in every way but i guess tht didnt matter to them...
huh...i have no comments in this...
Masks r there w/o even wearing it...

MUackszeeee:)

TOO bz wif life

2009-05-25T00:49:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

As u knw tht now im having my attchment.
2nd week is abt to strt...i been reali bz...majorly.
I been too occupied wif attchment,werk n cca...
I noticed tht i had no time to spent with my family...
Not even a day..
My mom is a little bit agitated with me as im always not at home..
But wht can i do,duty calls...
This week i werk till sunday jus to boost up the income...

Well tomorow i on morning shift,after tht i had guitar lesson tht ends arnds 8 plus...
I had to go if not all my money n effort will b wasted...
I do feel guilty at times...
Everytime i see my mom sad face,my heart can onli whisper sori...
The end of attchment.2 weeks of holidays will come,but im surely goin to werk for those days...
There is nthg i can do to avoid this activities...

Haiz...However i will try to find time for myself n family...
ok goin to sleep now,have case study to present tomorow
Wish me luck:)

MUackszeeee:)

haiz....

2009-05-23T22:57:00.002+08:00

STRESS!

TIRED!

MAJOR FRUSTRATION!

:(

4 DAYS HAD PASsed")

2009-05-22T00:05:00.004+08:00

Dear diary,

Well 4 days of attchment had passed..
For the first few days,its was boring and little unsure coz i jus step in to a new environmnet
Parameter is the main job for me...
I noticed tht the paedratic sector is totali different frm the posting at AH..
Here the routine is more organized,n there is not much rushing

MOrning shift is much more better thaN afternoon shift...
Time flies much faster...
I got to talk to the parents in my cubicle,n one of them is a SN in mary mount Hospital
I also gt to knw experiences of having a child frm the parents story..
If i want to get sponsored i will choose KKH....
BUT there is still more to learn abt other wards...

3 more WEEks to gooo...SO MOre expreriences more to come....

MUackszeeee:)

Hate TUesday

2009-05-13T00:05:00.004+08:00

Dear diary,

Wht a tiring day...fooh i reali dislike tuesday..its a long n draggy day...
Nthg much today...Goin to lec n lab lessons was the main modules for today...
Today all of us get to see NAS,ser ting guy up close...
Not bad looking,but its the character tht counts...
wht for of having looks thts so handsome but the character is very ugly...
No point at all...

For now im counting down the days of HIM goin abroad...
Abroad to umrah for 15 days..he goin on the 16 may...
im gonna to miz him alot..All his sweet msgs...
Nvmd as long he is safe...

I also manage to get the answer to my guilt...
I think i will juz back off...
Juz go with the flow,if the situation gets tough i will react like i suppose to...
No point being nice...

MUackszeeee:)

Guilt tht within me...

2009-05-11T15:20:00.006+08:00

Dear diary,

im now in a difficult position...
To forgive or not to forgive....
Should i hold tis grudge 4 ever or should i juz let it go...
I knw my heart is not goin to b at ease if tis case is not settled....
Wht had happen is very painful,but should i take this as the reason....
All ppl makes mistakes but its the matter of intentionally or unintentionally....

Wht should i do to make things better?
So tht i wont regret in the future...
Readers help me out here:(

MUackszeeee:)

met someone:)

2009-05-07T23:40:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

I met someone again in tagged,his named is khalid,22yrs old NUs student in engineering course...
We had been contacting with each other for a month now...Frm wht i c,he is a sweet guy,joker,respect gerls,hardwerking too..I like being fren with him..for now we havent call each other yet,im waiting for him to make the first move..i knw he is shy...hehe..1 month is still fresh to go to the next step..There is still alot of things tht we should knw abt each other...Especially about me..i wonder hw is he gonna to react,if he knew..but i dont want to talk abt tht now...
Im hapi whenever i receive his msgs..well lets c where this frenship will go...

MUackszeeee:)

2nd year had strted

2009-05-07T23:17:00.004+08:00

Dear diary,

HAI YALL,SORI IF FOR SO LONG I DIDNT UPDATE MY BLOG...I WNT TO UPDATE BUT LAZY TO ON LAPTOP AT HOME...HEHEHE....

ANYWAY WE ALREADY STRT OUR SKL DAYS,,AND 2ND YEAR..WELL ITS A NEW YEAR STRESS YEAR FOR US RITE...HEHE...WHATEVER IT IS..LETS TRY TO MAKE IT OUR FUN YEAR...THIS YEAR I NOTICE ALOT OF CHANGES AROUND ME..ESPECIALLY IN PPL'S BEHAVIOUR...WELL PPL CHANGE RITE...

HOWEVR I LIKE THE MODULES OF THIS SEMESTER..INTERESTING AND IT PUT THE MOTIVATION FOR ME TO LEARN ACTIVELY...HEHE...I ALSO HAD JOIN THE GUITAR CLUB...AS I ALWAYS WANTED TO LEARN...LATER I WILL TRY TO PUT UP THE PIC K...HEHE....

SWINE FLU IS THE BIG NEWS FOR THIS YEAR,I FELT LIKE SARS PERIOD ALL OVER AGAIN...TEMP TakING..MAKS PROVIDED FOR SICK PPL...ISH SO TrouBLE SOME...BUT IT FOR OUR OWN SAFETY...DUE TO THIS SWINE FLU OUR TIMETABLE KEEP CHANGING..THT BRINGS UP MAJOR CONFUSION ESPECIALLY FOR ICA PRESENTATION...AS OUR ATTCMENT DATES IS NOT FIXED..

WELL LETS JUS WAIT FOR THE OUTCOME..
thts it..sori if its too long..cant stop once strt typing..hehe..

MUackzseeee:)

gd bye attchment:)

2009-04-08T00:30:00.003+08:00

Dear diary,

Well attchment is over,better than the previous one coz i get to do more hands on,eventhough there is ups n dwns,overall i enjoyed my self....

i love the shs,seeing cute primary skl kids,reali remind me of my childhood days..its great..me,hasif,suzanne n zizah went to HENRY PARK primary skl...its big for a primary skl...on the first day we observe the kids getting immunization...They r very funi...majority r scared...some cried...but most of them tht cried r boys...Thts is reali surprising...hehe...
On the second day,nthg much to do or observe,onli one class came for physical checkup,then thts it...

For now im jus waiting for skl to reopen...well do i miz skl..emm jus a little bit..hehe...
Thts it for now,,c ya...:)

Muackszeeee:)

New update..:)

2009-02-27T00:13:00.004+08:00

Dear diary,

hai gerls...hws is ur holidays so far..i hope u gerls r having a great time,b4 our attchment...

well u gerls knw tht now im working..it had been 4 days so far,my post is to retrive the files tht the polyclinic wants,after scanning i have to put the files back to the respective boxes...trust me there is alot of boxes,wif different code number..n the files r sorted by the box number n the IC number..Sometimes mixed up can occure.Appart frm tht the workers there r very frenly..most of them r in the age of our mom..hehe...

I also..knwn a few ppl frm tagged..chat wif them...But onli a guy tht i very comfortable wif,his different frm the guys tht i knwn b4..Main thing is he respect me...His name is Shahri..cute..not bad looking..I like him..now we r jus close fren..but hope tht we jus stick to tht..The prblm is the age gap between us...this is his pic..

My close guy fren:)

well thts it
c ya later..MUackszeeee:)

Journey to Novasprint:)

2009-02-21T22:35:00.006+08:00

Dear diary,

Alhamdullillah..At last i got myself a job at Novasprint..All thanks to sha2 who told abt this job.So for this 3 weeks i will b bz...1 day 36 dolars and only work for 8 hours..This job is goin to b a big help for my family finance..
Well i will strt working on this coming monday...

Before getting this hapi news,i had gone through a lot of suffering...
1stly i got lost half way in finding the building.. azizah did help me direct the way by hp..At blk 1003 i have the trouble finding the canteen,so i called the company for the direction..at last i did find the building..
2ndly,it is raining so darn heavily,even with umbrella i can still get wet,my jeans mostly,luckyly my 2nd sis accompany me...
3rdly,i had my mense and it is the first day,n my stomach n vagina r severely painful,my legs felt tht it was ripped apart..AAh..i cant take it seh...

But getting the job,the pain reali pays off....

ok thts it,posting something new later..
MUackszeeee.:)

exam r over

2009-02-18T14:27:00.005+08:00

Dear diary,

Yeah! Finali exams are over and vacation has started..
So far i think i did average for my all my exam.
The last paper sociology the Saq are difficult it is becoz i had forgoten wht i had studied
All the info suddenly blank out,well the examination is over..so juz pray and hope tht everything goes smoothly.

My main plan for this 3 weeks of vacation is to work and get cash...
NOt onli for me but for my family needs..
Since my father is useless and is a self centered jerk,i have to take things into my own hands
If possible,i will continue working even though schl has re open...

The girls are planning for an outing this coming friday...Emm i wonder where we will b goin..Hehe
I think my cat is goin to labour soon...HEhe I CANT WAIT...

Thts it FOr now

Gerls hapi SCHOOL HOLIDAE...:)

MUackszeeee:)

:)

2009-01-29T13:16:00.004+08:00

Dear diary,

yeah!finali presentation r over...

Now I can concentrate on my essay,emm... very troublesome..

If I don need to do this essay i can go to the gym,to slim down my body,i wonder when i will have the time...haiz..

till now i still havent contact the gym gerl yet,hope tht she didnt cancel my membership..

I heard a news saying tht the previuous kitten tht i found had run away frm the owner's house

Jus hope tht GOd will protect her,wherever she is..

Well...i strt to admire someone..which is im trying to throw away tht kind of feeling

Coz i think tht is not worth it

hehehehe..

Nvmd sometime heart can b crazy..

But i REALI want my admiring days to b OVER....

MUackzseee:)

Terjumpa org baru..")

2009-01-26T21:52:00.005+08:00

Found a new kitten today..sooooooooooo cute n adorable.

but i cant keep her,coz i already have two adults cats in the house n new borns kitten are coming soon.My female cat,Manis did not like the kitten in the house,for the whole day she hide under the bed,didnt even eat or go to the toilet.It reali werries me,but luckily she gt come out whenever we were distracted for example waching tv,The kitten have a high pitch voice,she is very noisy especially when she taking her bath.

Already found a new owner for her,luckily,if not i have to send her to the SPCA,which is my last choicer.Tomorow the new owner will come to fetch her...ooh..gonna to miz her..hehe tkpe la janji dier selamat..

That owner is mira..thx gerl,reali appreciate it:)

MUackszeeee:)

Hari yg best dan juga MEMALUKAN

2009-01-23T21:33:00.003+08:00

Alhamdullilah,aku pass aku nye health assessment..Aku dpt abdomen,itu memang senang tapi kalau tk tahu buat atau ade byk kesilapan,blh gagal.Aku hampir fail,disebabkan satu kesilapan,aku salah ukur liver..nasib baik,cikgu tu kasi aku peluang...Zizah,mira,sha2 pass..cume amala je yg fail,sebab dier slh percuss..tkpe harap second attemt dier dpt pass...

Tapikan aku dpt malu..disebabkan escalator..aku ngan sha2 turun dulu,setengah jln aku ngan sha2 kelang kabut naik balik...tapi aku yg PALING SELENGER SEKALI...MALU!MALU!MALU!Zul pun ade pat situ,ade lelaki,lagi buat aku paisey...haaaaaaa!kenape aku ni?haiz...

Tkpe la bagi aku ni sebagai gelakan....yg TKKAN AKU LUPEKAN...

Skrg aku kene tumpukan pade essay dan presentation...

muackszeeee:)

Hari2 tension yg akan dtg

2009-01-20T17:47:00.002+08:00

PENAT,NGANTOK,STRESS..!

Aku tak tahu sameade aku bole bertahan utk minggu yg akan dtg..

Ni pun aku nye health assessment aku lom strt blaja langsung,byk bende nk kene ingat,aku nk pass aku nye first attempt,jadi tkya nk stress lagi pasal ni..

Project assignment,communication essay lagi nk kene hntr,haiz....pecah otak...

EXAMS pun dh nk dkt...

WELL aku rase baik susah skrg dari susah kemudian kan..

Aku rase lebih baik aku keep myself occupied so tht i wont feel my life is empty..

muackszeee:)

OpEn HouSE EXperience:)

2009-01-10T01:32:00.004+08:00

FOOH...Hari ini open house memang penuh...AKu pulak kene jadi usher,kene senyum n saying goodbye to ppl,pat escalator pat atrium yg nk turun g fountain.Mule2 tk la ramai sgt org,tapi dalm kul 5 plus onward,sklh semakin penuh ngan visitors..Aku pun naik penat,kdg2 bosan pulak tengok reaksi dorang bile kite kate goodbye,template ade tknk ambk...Ade budak secondary yg ngade2 pulak,bile tengok template nursing je kate tk interested.Ape saje..kalau dh desperate mesti ambk nursing jgk,sombong nk mampus..Ape dorang ingat nursing ni tkde future ke huh..

Nasib baik la ade break yg byk,walaupun each break is onli half or one hour,janji kaki aku ni dpt rehat..sakit nye lagi teruk daripade mase pat attchment seh..N my duty is frm 10am to 9 pm...wow..

Tapi smue sakit dan penat tu berhasil jgk,sbb aku dapt tengok HAIZAD IMRAN perform live....His SO CUTE...le tahan jgk suare dier..aku ade ambk video n gmbr dier...Tapi aku tk dapt ambk gmbr ngan dier,sbb aku dh kene rush home bb dh kul 9 plus...Aku alek lepas dier nye first song...Well hari tu memang hari yg memenatkan dan juga hari yg besssst sekali...YEAH!

ok tu je..krg nk kene blaja pulak..well gd luck k gerlz..
muackzseee:)

Luahan hati

2009-01-08T13:30:00.004+08:00

Hari ini dah 08.01.09.Ade lagi sebelas hari sblom si dier balek.But this time im not looking fwrd to it.sbb aku dh tau yg sebenarnye.His not interested.N this truth reali help alot coz it stop me frm hoping for something tht wont come true.Sometime when i go into my fantasi world i scared to get out of it,coz in my realiti world,always turn out to b different and painful..My ambition for this year is too b happi always but now i realise it not tht easy and it is impossible.Y everything tht i hope for always when down the drain..mayb it just my faith..i will tri very hard not to lose my self esteem coz life have to go on..so...Juz hope ill survive..

muackzsee:(

Soo Careless of me!

2009-01-05T22:23:00.003+08:00

Hari ini memang hari yg paling boring sekali.Nari aku hampir absent utk aku nye skill.gare2 aku tk check aku nye schedule.Knape aku ni cuai sgt??aku hampe dgn diri aku sendiri....tapi aniway aku fail skill aku,sbb ade byk mistakes..tkpe la 2nd attempt aku akan buat ngan lagi sungguh2..n that time i will b there...

muackzseee:)

2009 Wishes:)

2009-01-02T13:28:00.006+08:00

3..2..1...HAPPI NEW YEAR!!!WHOOH!

Goodbye 2008 hello to 2009...

Tahun baru bermakne care hidup yg baru..

Dalam 2008,aku telah harungi byk kegembiraan dan juga kesedihan.

Dalam tahun tersebut aku telah berjaye masuk ke poly,jmpe kawan2 yg best2 dan Mengumpulkan byk memori bersame...aku tk keseorangan dan aku tk seperti dulu..aku telah berubah menjadi lebih socialize...hehe...

Ade jugak kesedihan yg aku lalui...tapi itu semue sudah buang jauh dari hati dan ingatan...

Dalam tahun 2009,aku berazam utk menjadi lebih ceria dan lebih positive...

Walaupun sehingga kini,aku maseh solo...emm biarkan,mungkin jodoh aku maseh jauh..satu hari PRINCE CHARMING aku tu pasti akan datang..insyallah..

Aku juga ingin menambah lebih warne pade pakaian aku seperti pink,blue and white...

Aku harap dalam tahun baru ini kehidupan aku akan lebih sempurna dan gembira...

Ok tu je...luv u all.

muakzseee:)

(:HaPPi:) ****2009****)

ish gatal nye dier...

2008-12-25T15:48:00.002+08:00

Pade hari rabu,24/11/08,SEORANG LELAKI BAGI AKU NAMECARD DIER LENGKAP NGAN HP NUMBER...ooh...hehehe.smpai hari ini aku tk contact dier langsung,ish..aku tk minat la kat dier...umur dier aku rase arnd 26-28..muke ok la...badan ade sikit muscle,sikit je..dier pakai cermin mate hitam..aku rase aku pernah nmpk dier semase aku otw nk g airport ngan adk2 aku.pade mase tu pun dier cube main2 mate...tapi aku tk layan..aku tk sangke yg pade hari rabu tu aku akan terserempak ngan dier lagi,ni kali obvious giler yg dier fliting.bile dier nk turun pat outram park,dier sempat pass aku his namecard.sempat dier senyum....name dier basir,in charge of a catering service...hai..guys will be guys..but im not goin to take chances wif him,coz im sure he is goin those flirting type of guys who have the same stupid intentions in mind...lebih baik aku selamat kan diri dan hati aku ni...

ni adalah pengalaman baru bagi aku..tapi aku harap pade mase hadapan aku tkkan harungi perkare yg same..kalau blh aku nk lelaki yg baik..bukan mcm ni semue..

ok tu je,comment ok..nanti bukak sklh aku akan tunjuk kan korang card dier..k..
muackzseee...:)

BORING NYA....:@

2008-12-19T06:11:00.002+08:00

Setiap bulan mesti mcm gini,slau mungkir janji..lain yg dier kate lain yg dier buat.bosan btl...salah ke kalau mintak hak sendiri.gare2 seseorang,budget smue lari..krg orang yg kat sini yg pening kepale,bukan dier..senang je dier buat alasan,nk lepas dari tanggungjawab.Tu lah dulu sape suroh cari beban beh skrg mcm nk slhkan org kat sini..kalau org kat sini berkeras sikit je,dier kate yg kite tk paham masalah dier...ish susah la...bile agaknye perangai dier nk berubah...benci btl...kdg2 aku bingung,nk kesian kan dier atau tidak,mcmane pun dier ade kaitan darah dgn aku.jadi kene hormat..hi....entah la...

CONGRATS FIZAH!

2008-12-19T05:51:00.004+08:00

Wow,finali my sis got her N level result and it is satisfying.Die pass smue subject dier dgn grade yg bagus.
English 4
combined humanities 4
maths 5
science 3
food n nutrition 4
malay 2
malay oral merit

Dier dapat kalah kan aku dalam science and combined humanities...emm tkpe..aniways aku bangge ngan adk aku...congrats fizah...Dier cdg nk g ITE for nitec course.Dier tknk g sec 5 sbb stress ngan course work utk food n nutrition..ok aku anything je,ITE pun ade future jgk.skrg adk aku ngah pening kepale nk pilih course.bile tengok dier teringat semase aku nk pilih course utk poly...akhirnye aku pilih nursing...Ape2 course pun adk aku pilih aku akan tetap support dier all the way....dan sentiase berdoa yg dier akan harungi mase depan yg cerah..amin..GOOD LUCK FIZAH..kakak always love u...

muackzsee...:)

MERINDUI ORG JAUH..

2008-12-18T00:20:00.003+08:00

I MIZZZ HIM ALOT TODAY...!I cant stop thinking about him..Aku perasan yg setiap hari rabu,hati aku akan merasai rindu yg mendalam pade dier...sebab hari rabu la yg dier berangkat ke india,utk ambk aleh bisnus bapak dier..Dier kesane utk 3 bulan,tapi dier kate dia akan pulang pade bulan januari.Walaupun kami tak pernah berjumpe,kemesraan itu telah wujud diantare kami..Kami rase senang...bergurau senda...memberi name gelaran..Dier sharuhk,aku rani..hehe..pe saje kite ni...

Asfar..hmm..buat mase skrg aku bole kate yg dier seorang yg baik hati,sopan santun,peramah,tidak dirty minded...tapi ini hanye permulaan...Aku memerlukan lebih mase utk mengenalinye dgn lebih rapat...Harap2 dier la utk ku..hehe..Kalau ya,aku harap keluarge ku dapat menerima dier..insyallah...Aku hanya mampu merancang,tapi DIE yg menentukan...

bye2,muackzseee!

WORSE!MITING EVER....

2008-12-16T00:15:00.002+08:00

Nari aku btl2 bingit ngan group members aku utk psychology.
out of 6 members onli 2 members manage to turn up for the miting..
onli ME N AZIAH...
pade hari sblom nye aku dh msg smue org kate"Hazimah here,2morow we have a pyschology miting at 4 in the south wing lib,can?"
Hasif replied"ok"..amala protest asl kul 4,knape tkle adekan miting siang sikit?Aku kate sbb aziah,doreen,luanne ade communication miting frm 12 to 3..jadi ape slh nye dtg kul 4 since smue org dh ade kat situ..sbb kite nk habis kan keje cepat.then aku msg amala kate yg miting tu cfm..tapi dier tk reply..so i just buat bodoh je.

malam tu luanne msg kate yg dier tkle make it for the miting bb bapak dier nk kene hntr pat hospital...ok so her reason is understandable...

on the day itself..dalam kul 2.30..aku msg si amala tanye same ade dier datang atau tidak....
this is wht she replied"Gal i dont think i willl b comin for the miting later coz im having cramps veri painful btw i send the slides to u through email k,i have added the new slides frm aziah jus edit if need to sori abt it stil am doing the powerpoint slides,send it asap"

aku appreciated tht she doin the slides...tapi yg paling aku geram ialah,die tk inform aku yg die tk dpt datang..walaupun dier hntr slides pat aku..tapi aku tk bwk laptop buat ape kan..aku pergi utk miting..coz the main objectives of the miting is to see the slides n do adjustment together...

that part,i partly pissed off....ok..aku kuar rmh,n naik train...otw g tanjong pagar,hasif msg aku
"i cannot come"
i replied"y?"
hasif:"im going out"
me:"next time can inform me earlier k,thx k"

aku btl2 GERAM...aku mcm nk patah alek..tapi aziah dh tunggu pat sklh...so..i juz continue my journey...
that whole trip...i was shouting inside,feeling like i want to curse them...tapi bile pikir alek..tkde gune nye...

sampai je,doreen pun tkde..jadi aku pun tk ambk tau..tk ambk kuase pun nk msg dier...
aku bilang aziah ..dier pun pissed off...
tapi kite terus kan miting kite dan dapat habiskan slides...alhamdulliah...
kite ketawe,gurau..nk hilang kan stress...
dalam kul 6 lebih aru kite alek...

haiz..ni la pertame kali aku kene mcm gini..dh la aku akan lupekan aje tentang ni..tak gune bergaduh..sbb itu classmatezz aku jgk...tapi amala tetap musuh...

so far malam ni,hanye luanne je yg tanye tentang perkembangan miting tadi,yg lain jgn harap la...haiz...

tau mcm gini memang aku postpone miting tadi n jage mak aku yg sakit...haiz..

ok tu je..besok hari baru dan cerite baru,akan ku menulis nye

bye2,muackseeee!

LONG...LONG..DAY..

2008-12-12T00:16:00.001+08:00

Nari skolah mcm biase cume aku ade sakit perut yg haa..tk le tahan seh aku...mcmane tah perut aku ni le masok angin..dh la skola habis lambat..tapi nasib baik la..sakit nye lege..bile smpai rmh terus aku sapukan minyak angin...
mira hapii sgt sbb die dpt 3 hadiah daripade wawa..wow bes kan..aku dulu satu hadiah pun tk dpt..hadiah sakit hati adelah..hmm..tk kesah la..tengok kwn aku hapii..aku pun turut hapii...aku harap perhubungan mira ngan wawa kekal..wawa pun dh tukar image die semakin handsome dan dapat rate 10 frm mira...frmm 4 to 10..wow perkembangan besar tu eh...
Tasha pulak dpt jmpe kucing dier alek,her darling"baby"...hapii utk dier sbb kalau aku pun,aku pun akan rase hapii dapat jmpe alek kucing kesayangan...ooh ya ckp pasal kucing kesayangan kan..kucing aku "manis" mengandung...hee..bez nye...tk sabar aku nk dpt kitten...cfm comel2...
tapi mak aku mcm tk hapii sbb dier takot financial tk cukop..tapi aku akan bantu dgn mendptkan duit sponsorship,form nye aku nk hntr tk lame lagi...mira bingit pasal eka..huh..tk sape pun.,postpone miting n assingned another day without members approval..tkde perasaan la dier..berubah drastik sgt...hate her!whateeverr...rite..
penat..tk sabar utk holidays...dan paling penting adalah kepulangan asfar...

pasal kes asfar..aku tk tau la,jawapan nye tk jelas,semuenye maseh awal...perasaan aku sendiri tk menentu..kdg2 suke,kdg2 tk...aku tknk tarohkan byk harapaan pade hubungan teka teki ini...sbb takot terluke...haa..waktu je yg menentukan...

k la tu je..besok cerite baru,dan aku akan menulis nye..

bye2..muakzseee...:)

permulaan

2008-12-07T01:51:00.000+08:00

niat ku menulis adalah utk meluahkan perasaan hati
meluahkan segale kesedihan,keriangan dan juga kemarahan
ku ingin mencatat segale kisah yg terjadi dalam kehidupan ku
ianya menjadi sebuah buku
utk dijadikan rujukan pada segala kenangan bersama mereka yg ku sayang

biarlah buku ini menjadi rahsia ku dan org2 yg ku percayai
dengan ada nya buku ini akan ku rasa lebih tenteram..:)

zimah..