Dear diary,

Only left with 2 more weeks b4 skl ends..
Now i realise how fast time flies..
PRCP is getting nearer n nearer!
OMG,can i make it?
I will ensure tht i will..
although nursing is not my passion,i will not intend to waste my time n effort spent in this course for no diploma in the end..
I will do my very Best!

Well besides tht,In the past few weeks i been having alot of outings wif my 'click' and class
As a class we went to seoul garden for mkan,Graduation party..
as a click we went to vivoct to watch movie..'The despicable me',Its a funi movie,much recommended to watch..hehe...
another outing is coming up,the last one,b4 skl is out..
The photos is piling up..
our intention Is to gather as much memories as possible..

My relationship is going well so far...
there is ups n dwns,alhamdullilah,we manage to solve it in a better way..
I hope ALLAH blessed our relationship,n our destiny is to b together for life..
I do luv him very much..
cant wait for the relationship to b 2mth old,so i knw we can sustain it long enuf..

Thts it for now:)
Got to go

Muackszeeee:)

Dear diary,

11 may 2010,was the best day of my life..
ITS MY SCHOOL PROM NITE WHOOH!!
The theme is hollywood bollywood,i wore a black dress..
The games was awesome,i like it when the guys did poll dancing..sexy..
N When it was uncle beng's turn he make the poll dance for him
we all laugh like mad,lol

We ate,n also taking photo wif a few VIPS,like hassan n few others.
The food was nice,but the drinks are limited,hehehe
After eating all the sugar boost food,we all went dancing on the dance floor..
i dance dance n dance,reali letting my self go,n forgetting all my werries...

It was great dancing wif my gerls..
Happy moments,there also b emotional moments...
mala n sha2,hug n cried...tht a good part,tht meant there is no more conflict in my click..
Problem solve..I also cried along wif them,Wht can i do,i also a emotional person.hehe
Then we continue dancing till 10pm...
Arnd 1030pm,my daring come to pick me up...
thank u mala,n aziah accompaying me for tht half n hour.....


MUackszeeee:)

Dear diary,


I had fun wif my guy last fri..
We watches a movie called "Freddy of Elm street".The story is not tht terrfying but it contain alot of suspen scene,tht make the viewers scream..
At first i was sitting alone keeping all my hands to myself,the next thing i knw i hugging the arm of my guy,as i was scared..
He took my left hand n hold it tight in btween his palms.....
He kissed me on the forehead..
Then we continue watching the movie till the end..

That is the first time tht i felt respected by a guy..
After the movie we went for dinner,we ate "nasi ayam penyet" at bedok corner..
SEDAP....hehehe
We talked,n getting to knw each other more deeply..
After tht,we went to east coast beach for a stroll..then we sat on a bench,listening to music on youtube in his Iphone
I introduce to him my favourite malay song,"gurauan berkasih" sang by achik n siti nordiana..
He likes the music but havent master the lyrics yet..hehe
I hope he will soon,so tht he knws how meaningful is tht song..

Thus he ride me home..
Tht is the most memorable day,n i hope in the future,nthg change..

Muackszeeee:)

Dear diary,


In this semester there have been alot of ups n downs in terms of frenship n family
First im the main problem,i didnt do anything for my family prblm till i gt a confrontation of my life it does woke me up..I tried different ways but another prblm pop up,my mother..
My mother who doesnt agree to MSW help,we fought like almost everyday jus to make her see the facts..But she still being stubborn..since then i had become rebellious..I been coming home late jus to find peace for my self...
Then i met him,who reali brighten my life.
Now the iceberg is breaking bit by bit..now i can even talk to my mum n siblings not sarcastically
But the tough voice is still there...

Another prblm had pop up..
SHA SHA N AMALA is cold wif each other due to some argument..
I understand frenship do have ups n downs,but how u solve it is the main thing...
Im totali nuetral in this situation..
I jus want them to b back together,i want ALL 5 OF US TO B IN 1 CLICK ONCE MORE..
i jus go wif the time as i knw this situation cant b rush..
GERLS PLS DONT LET A MOMENT DESTROY ALL THE GOOD MOMENTS YOU HAD WIF EACH OTHER..GOOD MOMENTS IS THE BEST.
Like i said im floating,i will treat all my frens the same way..
all the best,i hope it will b a hapi ending:)

Muackzseeee:)

In the moment,everything can change..
Feel the wind on ur shoulder..
For a minute,all the world can wait,let go of ur yesterday
CAn u hear it calling,CAn u feel it in ur soul,CAn u trust this longing..
N Take CONTROL..

Chorus
Fly..
Open up the part of u tht want to hide away..
U can shine..
Forget abt the reason that u cant alive
N strt to try..
Coz its ur time..
Time to fly...

All ur worries..Leave them Somewhere else,Find a Dream u can follow..
Reach for Something When there is Nothing Left..
When the world feeeling Hollow..
Can u hear it calling,Can u feel it in ur soul,can u trust this longing
N take control...

Chorus


N when u down,n feel alone,juz wanna run away..
Trust urself n dont give up..
U knw u better than anione else..

In a moment,Everything can change...:)

Bila ku pendam kan sedih ku ini,semakin dalam rajuk dihati

Bila ku menegur kesilapanmu,kesudahnya tiada berkesan

ku hanya memandang..

Dunia yg engkau kejar kan,itu lah yg akan di tglkan,bila di hujung jalan

timbul la kekesalan..

Walau kau menangis,walau kau merintih..oooh

Tapi semuanya oooh,sudah terlewat...

Dear diary,

Yesterday,my sis,my mom n i went to the family court to settle the problem that had been tearing our brain apart...
We file a complaint angainst my father for not giving our money on proper,n as the result alot of billls piling up...We keep asking ppl money,juz to get food on the table n money for our ezlink...
OUr life is like toppling upside down...

Aniwaay,we finali got to mit him after a long time...
He changed alot,he got a tummy,n alot of white hair..
At first we were not talking to him at all..,but he approached me n my sis,n asking hw r we,its like rude not to answer...
i dont knw y,after a lot time he makes us suffer,we still respect him..like WTH...

Then their q number flashed,n they went to the mediation chamber
The session was about an hour,me n my sis were like slacking in the waiting room..
When the session is over,my father was not tht happy..as he cant reduce the amount of the maintainence money..
In fact ,according to my mum,he had to pay the amount on the exact day no delay,no less amount,if not the balance tht he didnt paid on tht particular mth will be bring foward to the following mth.....if he still not paying,he will b sent to jail..thts the new order...

Well tht had settled..
However yesterday,i felt tht my family is complete,i feel happy...
I got a mom n a father..
Sadly they r not together..
Wont it b wonderful,if my father didnt make problem in the past
My life wont b miserable,wont b lonely,n wont b broken...


MUackzseeee:)